I guess I'm guilty of writing when I'm worried ... Sort of like only going to church in times of trouble to seek strength - instead of also going in times of joy to sing praise. I often wonder if God sees me in moments of happiness and sighs, wishing I'd "check-in" more with good news instead of always bothering him with zombie-apocalypse worthy "worst case" scenerios.
It's no surprise then that I've been neglecting my writing ... lately I've been busy living a wonderful, love-filled life. So I wanted to share one of the happiest moments in my journey with all of you, who have stuck valiantly by my side during the rocky parts.
A little over a year ago, my days consisted of hospital ERs and going over possibilities of assisted living with friends and family. I could barely walk and weighed about 100lbs (I'm 5'5). The pain was unbearable and the future looked less then bright.
A nurse at Sloan Kettering once told me, "we are very good at saving lives here, but not always so good at improving the quality of life." The connection between mind and body, hope and recovery, can not be overstated. The western medical world of pharmaceutically funded solutions keeps us breathing, but it's eastern holistic medicine (yoga, meditation, etc) that keeps us in a place where we see the value in each breath. We need both.
When things were seemingly on an unending spiral downward, I met my fiancé Victor. I wasn't looking for love, it found me. A year later he proposed. I live in Queens now, and my heart truly feels home. My vitals are stable and the symptoms manageable; and my will to live a life with my best friend and incredible future husband is the best medicine God could have ever given me. For everyone who helped me get to the best chapter of my life thus far...Thank you - from the bottom of my heart.
Above picture: four of my students dressed up as characters from Grey's Anatomy for Halloween; my little sister Meredith - who graduates from Med school this year... My students, fiancé, friends and family envelop me in support each day